I've got no wisdom to offer, being very much in a chrysalis state myself. My world is small and intensely centered on the hearth just now, and will be for several years yet, I think. That being said, I am coming to have a strong appreciation for the notion of life stages, and fully inhabiting the one I'm in. Trying hard to remember, in a paraphrase of Yoda, not to have my mind always on the future, to actually live where I am. There is always a certain amount of past-analysis/retconning, and more future planning/daydreaming than there should be, but I find the most peace and the least dissonance when I can relax into the firm knowledge that this is where I am right now..that this stage won't last forever, or even really that long. It's okay to just be this, just be this version of me, right now. That is what your thoughts on authenticity pulled out for me, at any rate - I'm not quite sure if that's what you meant by them, but it provided some good food for reflection over here, for which I thank you. I understand the dichotomy of the need to perform/need to break free...it's odd how the faire can be life-raft, noose, and playpen, sometimes all at once. I miss knowing more about what's going on with the essential Amy...and hope you share more in this venue as you continue noodling on where you want to go.
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Date: 2015-05-19 02:10 pm (UTC)I understand the dichotomy of the need to perform/need to break free...it's odd how the faire can be life-raft, noose, and playpen, sometimes all at once. I miss knowing more about what's going on with the essential Amy...and hope you share more in this venue as you continue noodling on where you want to go.
Love you.